On Wednesday a dark rainy cloud entered my brain. Fear about money and life transitions had entered and paralyzed my thoughts. I couldn’t shake it, I felt trapped in my own head, needing to get out and trust but not knowing how. I was depressing myself and my family with my sour mood and irritable character. Yesterday it was pouring down rain and so I couldn’t do my ‘taking pictures walk’ around the neighborhood.  I went into Olee’s room and looked out the window to see how hard it was raining. I ended up taking these pictures which in the end completely reflected my state of mind.

I see in these pictures that I couldn’t see beyond the glass. All I saw was how dirty the glass was. Everything beyond was a black and white blurry fog. Looking at it now I can see how the dirt smudges and water stains make some really interesting and even beautiful patterns and texture. Being able to see the tests and challenges after they have past I am able to discern beauty that I wasn’t able to while going through it. I had a good long talk with the spouse about all the little things that had been piling up and then the dark clouds lifted in my head and I was able to see clearly again. (Thank you spouse!) I also said this prayer 95 times:

‘Is there any remover of difficulties save God. Say: Praised be God, He is God, all are His servants and all abide by His bidding.’  -The Báb

This prayer is absolutely incredible, so short, but so powerful and has gotten me through alot of dark times.